My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea! 17 months ago yesterday I last hugged you. Today I had to get 
up early to take Shaya to swim practice and came home to rest on the couch. All I could think about was those last hours with you as I laid there in the same spot you took your last breathe. Then I think back to that moment and look at pictures of you and mommy as she held you in her arms, stroked your cheek and slowly watch you enter heaven. My heart just hurts seeing the pain, grief and loss on mommy’s face. I just want it to all be a bad bad dream but it’s not.
So today I’m posting a pic of you and mommy taken at Christmas 2011. Mommy is the best wife, daughter, sister, mommy and friend EVER. Mommy is so gentle, loving, caring, considerate, compassionate, giving and forgiving. Everything that you were. Please ask God to send some comfort angels to mommy as she too still has a massive hole in her heart that she is trying to live with…some days are good and some days not so good. Seeing cards come in the mail of your friends graduating 8th grade has been hard…you were suppose to be graduating and going to HS next year with Shaya. God has a different plan…we are just trying to embrace it and live it with Him and for you!
Jess, I miss you tons, love you more and will see you in a “wink”…pinkie promise!!!
xoxo,
daddy