MY JESSIE JOURNAL:: Hi Sweet-Pea! I miss you so much. Tomorrow will be 8 weeks. This was never our plan. You were suppose to chase your dreams but God had another plan. Still hard to walk in your room without crying. So many memories. I’m still “peacefully empty”…I have peace because you are cancer free and with your loving heavenly father but I’m so empty without you. They say it gets easier…i just don’t see that. We were a family of 5 and I loved being your daddy.
I miss making 3 lunches in the morning. I miss seeing you at dinner in your chair. I just miss you!!! Some days we think you will still walk back in the door and then we realize that won’t happen. Tomorrow Mommy and I are going back to CHOC to deliver your JoyJars to the kids there. Lots of memories of that hospital. Mostly sad ones but still memories of YOU. Your 1st radiation treatment, your first chemo treatment, your 1st blood transfusion and your first CT scan. I remember so much. It’s going to be hard but you told us to “NEGU spreading joy” so we won’t.
The sign went up on your new building today. The JoyFactory is doing great. Ms. Gina, Ms. Diana, Ms. Tina and Ms. Jana are making it all happen. So are a ton of wonderful volunteers. A super nice family is paying for everything. Jessie you touched so many people baby.
Shaya is doing great…she made varsity swimming and got her braces off. JT is getting ready for his play at school. His class stuffed JoyJars for you. Mommy and I are working through all of this. We so wish we could of said “good bye for now”. It all happened so fast baby. We just miss you a ton. You could brighten any day with your smile. Uncle T and Aunt Kimmy are coming this weekend. They miss you tons too. So do Nana, Papa, Tanta and Bob. We all just MISS you!!!
Miss you tons love you more!
Daddy