My Jessie Journal: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy=). Someone asked me yesterday if I was going to continue to write to you now that it’s been two years. I smiled and said, “I don’t have any plans to ever stop writing to my baby girl.” The lady smiled and thanked me for being so open and honest with my thoughts. I told her it keeps me close to you and allows me to flush the pain out. I truly can’t imagine not writing to you Jess. Today is the 105th time I have written to you. If I write for the next 40 years to you it will be over 2,000 times. It’s just my way of staying connected to my little girl.
One of the other ways I stay connected is keep telling your story to everyone I can. In February I get to speak at a big leadership conference and talk about YOU. This is not your normal conference it is for the Untied States Air Force Academy in Colorado Springs, CO. I can’t believe they want me to share your story to the men and women who protect our country. What a honor this is Jess. I have spoken in front of thousands of people in years past but I’m already nervous for this one. I truly can’t believe that they know about you and they want me to share your story with all of the 1,000’s of cadets.
I also find out this month if I this massive company in Dallas Texas is going to stuff 10,000 JoyJars for their annual sales conference. This would be super fun and their support could catapult us to an entire new level of awareness. I can’t tell you the name yet but will as soon as I get confirmation. It will put a big smile on your face for sure.
Jess, I want you to know that I do everything I can to never make all of this about “you”. I know that would make you super sad because you didn’t like the attention on you…you wanted it on all the kids fighting cancer. So I want you to know that whenever I share I do my best to make sure they fully understand your desire was not to be famous rather be loving and caring to your peers. The video I show get this across very well because it has you talking.
I think you can tell by my note today that I’m doing ok as the year starts. It’s only been 9 days and only 4 days past the 5th. I was thinking two years ago I was planning for your celebration of life service. I’m going to watch it on Saturday the 11th, which will be two years.
I still cry, my gut still hurts, my heart aches and my soul screams for you…it always will.
I miss you tons, love you more and will see you in a “wink”…promise!
xoxo
daddy