My Jessie Journal: Hi Sweet-Pea. How are you? How is school? How is the swim? Those are were the questions I would tend to ask when I 1st saw after work. I still wonder “how you are”….I wonder if you even go to school anymore. Is there a swim team in Heaven? I was thinking about this last night when we went to JT’s back to school night and met his new teacher. I can’t believe little man is in 6th grade. He actually goes to camp in 4 weeks…that seems so fast. You didn’t even get to go to camp because your camp was after “d-day” which is what call the day you were officially “diagnosed”. But as I was sitting in his class room in one of those small plastic chairs I really did wonder, “What does Jessie look like?” “Does she age like people on earth?” I can’t imagine people in Heaven age as fast as on earth otherwise what will you look like in a trillion years=))). These don’t keep me up at night but I do think about them daily as I think about you.
One thing for sure is I will NEVER stop thinking about you. It’s unthinkable to consider that I just stop thinking about my daughter. That won’t happen! I know as time goes the amount of pain in my chest and the amount of tears that roll down my eyes with every word I type to you will decrease. I have no idea when that day will come but it will and it will be “ok”. Less chest pain and tears has to be good for my body.
Moe just came over and sat on my feet…more tears now. You and Moe were such good buddies. He still seems lost without you. He still whimpers when he goes into your room. That’s so crazy that a dog can remember 20 months back and the smell reminds him of you. I love this picture of you and Moe. You were so happy when you 1st got him. He now weights 80 pounds and is a massive mound of love.
We have your golf tournament in 11 days at Coto. We still need 10 foursomes to reach our goal. I’m asking everyone I know probably to much=). I just want to raise the money so we get the big matching gift from the Salah Foundation. All of this so we can send 10,000 Holiday JoyJars to kids in the hospital this December. I love putting smiles on faces…they remind me of yours!
Miss you tons, love you more…see you in a wink;-)
xoxo
daddy