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My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet-Pea!!! Sending you a Daddy Hug from Home today. 32 weeks…darn it feels like 32 years.I still get numb when I fully comprehend that fact that cancer took you from us. Never thought cancer would have entered our homes. Not in my wildest dreams. It did and now I have to wait way to long to see you. Life just isn’t the same. Dinners are not the same. As I get ready to start making lunches I only make 2…maybe I will make 3 and use the 3rd myself=).

Truthfully, the only way I can go on is knowing I will see you again. Not if…but “will”. It only softens the edges of the pain that flows through my heart on a daily basis. But it also keeps me out of depression, which is a really good thing.

We are going to make a tribute video of all the kids that you met and those that have joined you called NEGU Heroes. You and all of the courageous kids that fight their cancer are true heroes. Non of you deserved it but you all gave it your all. The song we will use is by Westlife called “I’ll See You Again”. Here are the lyrics for you…

Always you will be part of me
And I will forever feel your strength
When I need it most
You’re gone now, gone but not forgotten
I can’t say this to your face
But I know you hear

Chorus:
I’ll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me (I really do Jess)
I know I’ll see you again
When I’m lost, when I’m missing you like crazy
I tell myself I’m so blessed
To have had you in my life, my life

Chorus
When I had the time to tell you
Never thought I’d live to see the day
When the words I should have said
Would come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself
I’ll see you again

Chorus
I will see you again
I’ll see you again
I miss you like crazy
You’re gone but not forgotten
I’ll never forget you
Someday I’ll see you again
I feel you walk beside me
Never leave you, yeah
Gone but not forgotten
I feel you by my side
No this is not goodbye (this is so true Sweet-Pea!!!!)

Don’t you love them Jess? They are full of “hope”…the most important ingredient to survive as we wait to see you again.

Here is the video on YouTube. Wonder if there is TV and computers in Heaven? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G57JH_Sk9Ws&feature=related

Love you much…miss you tons! See you in a “winke”.

xoxo,
daddy