My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet-Pea…today marks 52 weeks=(. Saturday will be the official 1 year 
mark. We are in Denver with Uncle T, Kimmy, Nana and Papa. It’s the place we all were together last. We all miss you so much. We went to the mall today and thought about our last trip there with you. You loved shopping so much. Shaya got some Cinn-a-sticks from Cinn-a-bon in memory of you too. You loved that place. You had such a sweet-tooth. JT got some Cherry-On-Top too, the other place you loved.
All I want to do is see you. Hug you. Hold you. Kiss you. Do butterfly kisses with you. Do Eskimo kisses with you. Kiss your cheeks. Hold you hands. So in place of touch, I will use words….
Jessie, I love you! I miss you! I think of you countless times a day. I’m honored to be your daddy. I love telling people about you. I miss making a lunch for you. I miss taking you to school. I miss watching you swim. I miss watching you sleep. I miss you a church. I miss you sitting at dinner. I miss having two daughters. I miss making JoyJars with you. I miss morning hugs. I miss hearing you say, “daddy’s home”. I miss seeing you play in your room. I miss seeing you splashing in the pool. I miss seeing you play with Mr. Moe.
I know hate is a strong word but it’s how I feel. I hate that you had cancer. I hate that cancer took your hair, hearing, strength and eyesight. I hate I could not help you. I hate that cancer robbed you of your life. I hate that so many people are hurting because of cancer. I hate seeing so many other innocent kids fighting. I hate seeing Shaya and JT cry. I hate seeing mommy sad. I hate that your room is empty. I hate cancer!
I’m honored to carry on your mission. I’m honored to represent so many other kids. I’m honored to be known as “Jessie’s daddy”. I’m honored that you trusted me in your greatest point of pain. I’m honored you let me help you and hold you when you just were not feeling great. I’m honored you did everything asked of you and never complained. I’m honored that God wanted you with Him more than here, which means he had a much bigger plan for you. I’m honored that over 200,000 people felt led to “like” your fan page and help us help kids NEGU.
I’m inspired by you, your love, your grace, your hope, your faith, your attitude and your smile!
I love you Jess and miss you soooooooo much!
Hugs from my heart to yours!!!
xoxo,
daddy