My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet-Pea, it’s daddy! I miss you so much. It has been 2,464 days until we last talked or touched. This was never our plan. You were suppose to chase your dreams but God had another plan. Still hard to walk in your room without crying. So many memories. I’m still “peacefully empty”…I have peace because you are cancer free and with your loving Heavenly Father but I’m so empty without you. We were a family of 5 and I loved being your daddy.
There are days I miss making 3 lunches in the morning for you, Shaya and JT. I miss seeing you at dinner in your chair. I just miss you!!! Some days I still imagine you walking back in the door and then I realize that just won’t happen.
We had so much fun stuffing JoyJars together every Monday in the garage for those 7 months. As I whispered to you in your final hours…”I LOVE YOU & I PROMISE EVERY KID WILL GET A JAR!” I won’t stop Jess until this happens. All of your family, friends, factory workers and fans are standing with me as we commit to you to never stop spreading joy (stuffed in a jar) to girls and boys fighting this terrible disease. When I see a child holding one of your JoyJars with a big smile it reminds me of the times we talked about the kids during our stuffing time. You had such a tender heart!
You inspire me Jess!!! You inspire everyone that hears your story. I’m so honored God allowed me to be your “daddy”…dang I miss you!!! Your smile is what kisses my heart daily…I love this picture of us many years ago when life was free of cancer, worry, pain or grief. It was all about family, our faith and having tons of fun!!!
Have a great day playing, running, swimming and laughing Sweet Pea…
See you in a wink!!!
xoxo,
daddy
