My Jessie Journal…Hi Sweet Pea…It’s daddy. Today is another day to miss you, talk to you, sing to you and blow kisses to you. My daily routine for four years now. Don’t think those four things will change…in an effort to soften the edges of the hole in my heart I talk to you, I sing to you and I end every night sending you kisses. I so wish we could take a selfie again like this picture…miss those moments so much.
This last week has been another roller coaster for me…I was doing good over all until I saw this commercial for that TV show The Bachelor…it’s that one that a guy meets/dates 25 ladies…I guess the goal of the show is to help the guy “find love”.
Then it hit me like a Mack truck…you won’t ever get to “find love”. Then it hit me harder…you won’t ever get to “be loved” and “share love”. That absolutely sucks!!!!
I will forever dream about a young man asking for your hand in marriage…walking you down the isle…and marring you. All because cancer robbed this from you. I’m so sorry Jess. I know you would have made an amazing wife and mommy. The amount of love that was in you at such an early age would have blossomed so bright.
Dang…here comes the tears…so I’m going to stop and focus on the love you decided to show to others when you were fighting cancer…I can do something with that…spread it!!!
Miss you tons…love you more…see you in a wink! I promise!!!
xoxo
daddy
