My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s me=). I love writing to you every Thursday morning. I was actually going to try do a video message for you, which I thought would be fun to try but every time I started to say…”Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy”…I started to cry. I guess I will have to practice a ton for one of these potential moments. Until then, it will just use my fingers to convey my love to you. I had a dream the other day that we met in heaven and you had this massive scrapbook of all of my letters to you. I think the purpose of the dream was to help me keep writing. Some say I’m crazy but I don’t care…In my heart this is how I stay connected to you. You still are my Sweet Pea…nothing is going to change that.
Shaya and JT were completing their Christmas list over the weekend, it was again one of those sober reminders that you are not physically with you. I was thinking of sending you a Christmas gift but I don’t know what to write on the shipping label…
To: Jessie Rees, Heaven
From: Daddy, California
Maybe someday they will figure out a way to get gifts to Heaven. Until then, I will just buy you one each year and place in your room=)).
We took our annual family picture by the big Christmas tree at Fashion Island over the weekend too. The nice couple said…beautiful family of four. Sure I smiled and said thank you, but inside I was screaming….”NOOOOOOO, we are a family of five!”. So I came home and found this picture of our 1st Christmas picture by the tree together. No matter what age you were…your smile and eyes would light up the photo.
I miss you so much Jess. The days are never the same since you moved to Heaven. Sure there are still 24 hours in each day, but many of those hours contain thoughts of you and tears for you. Thankfully someday we will be together again. That will be the best day ever!
Until then, keep reading my letters and pray that I can send you a video message so you can hear my voice and see my face…
xoxo
daddy
