My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet-Pea…it’s daddy! I sure hope you are doing great. I think about you several times a day and tell you how much I love and miss you. It’s been 3 years,…9 months and 3 days since I last touched you. While that is breaking my heart…it’s crushing mommies. On Monday, which was the 5th, it hit her again like a Mack truck screaming out of control down a massive hill.
This is a picture of her Facebook page and post Monday. It shatters my heart knowing she feels this way… “3 years 9 months since I last kissed this beautiful face…for some reason everything came rushing back and kicked me in the gut this morning…she never leaves my mind…and she took a piece of my heart with her to heaven.”
Like JT and Shaya, I want to stop the pain from invading mommies heart, soul and mind but I can’t. I hate not being about to fix this for them. So I hug and hold to the best of my abilities.
One thing for sure is you have one incredibly strong momma! I think that is where you got your strength to fight cancer. She still has her nightly devotional time in the exact spot the two of you did for those 10 months and 2 days. Those times with you were so special for her and keeping that routine keeps her connected to you. She also let’s Mr. Moe sleep on the bed when he wants to=). He is a big extension of you and we love it. Cuddling with him helps us too.
Jess, please come and visit mommy soon…she would love for you to stop by and tell her you love her during her dreams. We know you are all around us and always in our hearts, but hearing you in our dreams is like getting a special visit.
Thanks for being such an amazing kid Jess…you are truly covering the landscape of childhood cancer with JOY!
xoxo,
daddy
