My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea…it’s daddy! I sure hope this note finds you enjoying your day with all of your new friends. Please make sure you help all of the new arrivals so they get settled in with ease. I’m sure they would also appreciate a welcoming hug from you. You always gave the greatest hugs. I love this picture of you and Shaya hugging.
Dang…I just think about getting a hug from you and my eyes get moist. I would love a hug from you but I know I need to wait until I see you again. One of my dear friends who you knew from the swim team has texted me every Thursday since you moved to Heaven with “Thursday hug!”. She is such a great friend to be thinking of me and texting me for over 3 years now. I’m so thankful to have her in my life.
I’m sure the kids that have met you over the past few years are thankful to have you in their lives. You were always so caring and considerate of others. I truly think your compassion for other kids is what defined your life more than cancer. You had cancer for 10 months and 2 days. You were compassionate for 12 years and still are through your foundation.
Jess, every time I see a child holding one of your JoyJars in a hospital bed it reminds me of you. It was your dream and your drive that has made such a positive difference in the childhood cancer field. As you know your JoyJars have reached kids in all 50 states and now 29 countries. The latest being Nicaragua. How cool is that? I think it’s super cool that your simple idea of JoyJars has gone global.
I miss you so much Sweet Pea! I so want life to return to normal and have you back but that just isn’t in the cards. I hate not having you here and seeing mommy, Shaya and JT sad some days. I feel Shaya and JT had to grow up so fast, which isn’t fair to them. No sibling should have to endure the agony and pain of losing their brother/sister. I know I need to stay strong Jess…I just felt like having a little 20 second pitty party because I’m miss you so much.
We all love and miss you tons…
xoxo
daddy