My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy=). How are you doing? I hope amazing!!! You deserve to be and feel amazing! How could you not be and feel amazing now that you are in Heaven. That is the most amazing place ever and I can’t wait to join you.
I’m doing good today…last night I had the opportunity to go to the Angels baseball game with a few supporters and they asked me all types of questions about you. One dad said, “So I have a 10 year old daughter now…did Jessie have symptoms at 10?” He wasn’t scared but very curious as he reflects on his own child. I assured him that you were a healthy and happy kid until Feb 2011 when you started to get some headaches and had some blurred vision.
Then he said, “I just don’t know what I would do if she ever got sick.” I tried to encourage him not to think about the “what if”…rather think about what he can do now to just invest in his daughter. I reminded him about the many times I said to you… “Just a minute.” Those three words still haunt me with guilt.
One of the other questions was, “How did you tell Jessie about going to Heaven?” I shared with him about how you correlated it to when I would go on mission trips for weeks and eventually we would be back together. I also shared how you found comfort in knowing the time apart is like a “wink”.
They asked about Mr. Moe and getting your fun room designed for your “wish”. It reminded me of this picture…you were SO happy, which made us so happy.
Sharing last night was hard and still very healing to talk about those intimate moments with you to them. Tears streamed from my face as I shared but they were tears of LOVE…not sadness. I tell people that “love tears” don’t leave you empty rather hopeful.
I miss you so much and love you tons more…see you in a wink Jess! I promise!
xoxo
daddy
