My Jessie Journal: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy! How was the 4th of July for you? I bet you all have the best fireworks shows ever. We had fun relaxing at home and saw some fireworks. JT even said at one point, “Jessie would have loved that one.” We all miss you so much!!!!!! I love this picture of you and I on July 4, 2011.
Mommy is reading a book and shared this statement with me….”Not one thing in your life is more important than figuring out how to live in the face of unspoken pain.” That is such a true statement. How do you live in the face of unspoken pain? The reason it’s unspoken is people get tired of talking about how much they hurt so they do their best to just march on while their soul cries out in pain.
It made me think a ton and I came up with this…how do you put all the pieces back in the puzzle of your life when you have lost some of the most meaningful ones?
I actually don’t think you can because all you do is keep staring at the missing pieces in your puzzle and get frustrated or sad. However, you can give yourself permission to pick a new puzzle and realize it’s time to start building it with great anticipation of the journey to complete it. I’m still in the process of picking a new puzzle and I will eventually make it next to the one with the missing pieces so I can remember the past as I embrace this “new normal” of unspoken pain.
Some say, broken wheat can make bread and broken clouds can make rain. I like to say…a broken heart can make the world a little better. I see so many amazing people that have used their brokenness to make the world a better place. You sure did…and I’m doing all I can now in your honor.
Rest assured Jess, I will keep looking for a new puzzle to build instead of staring at the missing pieces in my current one. Not sure when but I will get there=).
Thank you so much for leaving me with a project!!!!
I love you….
xoxo,
daddy
