My Jessie Journal: Hi Sweet-Pea…I miss you so much!!! I think about you, your smile, your laugh, 
your hugs and a ton of other things constantly. I was driving home last night and flipping through channels and a song came on the radio that caused me to pull over and cry. It was a song that you and I didn’t listen to much called “Butterfly Kisses”, but it was one I listened to regularly as I imagined walking you and Shaya down the isle on your special wedding day. The first part of the songs says.
“There’s two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she’s
daddy’s little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank God for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; “Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it’s my first ride.”
“I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried.”
In all that I’ve done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.”
The song goes on to talk about being 16, growing up and getting married. Three specific things I won’t ever get to do with you….see you turn 16, see you grow up and see you get married. You would have been an amazing mommy with you BIG heart.
Thankfully I can (and will always) remember how we loved giving each other butterfly kisses. Oh what I would give for just one butterfly kiss but that won’t happen so I will continue to blow you Heavenly Kisses as I do each night when I say “Good Night” to you. Love you so much…miss you tons!!! xoxo, daddy