My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet-Pea!!! I miss you so much. I know I tell you that every day but I miss 
you a ton. Life just does not seem right without you in it. Your smile. Your hug. Your laugh. Your spirit. Your hair. Your skin. Your hands. Your dimples. I just flat out miss you. Some days I just go in your room and stand in silence feeling your presence. Yesterday I spoke on a radio show about your and your legacy.
They asked if I every got mad at God and did this all challenge my faith. I told them the truth. I got super mad at God some days because I did’t understand why an innocent 11 year old little girl had to have cancer. I didn’t understand why He gave us the honor of being your parents and then took you. I didn’t understand why He didn’t heal you when he could. So yes, I got mad and it challenged my faith to the core. But then I thought, “God does not owe me an answer.” He is God and I’m not. I didn’t like this but what else could I have done besides get more and more angry and hit depression?
Jess, you helped my faith grow more than you will ever know. You showed strength when I was weak inside. You showed love when I was lost. You showed grace when I was angry at the doctors. You talked about seeing me in Heaven and it being just a “wink”. You were my rock in so many ways Sweet-pea, which is why I just flat out miss you. Life is continuing and all I want to do is yell “stop”…but if it stops then it will slow down when I see you so I have to move with it and keep you close to my heart and soul.
One thing that you would love to know (you probably already know this) but your big sister is now driving…I bet you are laughing about that one. She got 100% on her test and is doing really great. Make sure you talk to the Angels and ask them to protect her. She will do fine…just makes daddy a little nervous. Another one of those…”Trust God with my baby girl” opportunities.
I saw Uncle T and Aunt Kimmy last weekend. They talk about you constantly and miss you tons too. T and I cried and laughed thinking about you. You are so loved and so missed.
I miss you tons, love you more and will seek you in a “wink”.
xoxo,
daddy