My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea…it’s daddy! I so wish we could talk today. I miss having conversations with you. You loved to talk about your day at school, your time at church or how things were at swim team. I miss those times so much. This picture reminds me of us talking. I miss your words and your face so much!!!
Today would have been one of those “talk times” as it’s pouring rain outside right now and you liked staying in bed a little longer when it was dark and rainy outside. Some times I would cuddle with you in bed and rub your back before you had to get up for school. I miss those times so much too. Bottom line is we will never stop missing you and all of the times we had and all of the times we hoped we would have had with you.
A lady wrote me yesterday about how your book impacted her life, which was super nice of her. I love reading stories of how you are inspiring people. One thing she said that rang so loud in my heart was… “I hope your memories of Jessie always stay fresh”. I really loved the “stay fresh”….I want nothing more than all of my memories of you to be fresh. Fresh feels good, new and alive. Fresh is way better than stale memories. Please ask the Big Guy to give me extra memory juice as I get older so I can keep all of my memories of you “fresh”. That would be a great thing for me=).
I’m leaving for a day trip to San Francisco in a few hours. This wonderful family up there is doing a big fundraiser for you with the famous chef Michael Mina. I’m going up today to meet with him and his team to help plan out the event which is on Feb 11th. I’m so humbled by the outpouring of generosity for you, your wish to help every kid fighting cancer NEGU and all of the kids we have helped. Please thank the Big Guy for all of his support in your foundation. All of this is happening because of His love for YOU and the kids fighting.
I have no idea if it rains in Heaven but if it does…I hope you stay in bed just a little longer today and have fresh memories of mommy, Shaya, JT and I. We will do everything we can to have the same of you today Jess.
Miss you so much….love you tons more…see you in a wink! Promise!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo,
daddy
