My Jessie Journal:: Hi, Sweet Pea! It’s daddy. I hope you are doing great up in Heaven with all of your friends. I miss you so much and can’t wait to see you again. The last week has been full of story telling….I just love to share your story with as many people as I can. Saturday I told over 550 people about you at our gala. Then on Sunday some friends threw a massive backyard BBQ and I got to share your story to 350 people there. Then last night I shared your story to 70 people in Denver, CO. I just get so pumped when I can tell people about you, your JoyJars and your NEGU message. The week was really amazing until now…
I’m at the Denver airport heading home and my plane is at gate B23. It’s like I was on this massive ride of joy and excitement and then it all crashed 10 mins ago when I arrived here at the gate. I was going to write my note to you on the plane but I just had to write it now as I wait to board.
This gate is full of so many painful memories. This was the gate I waited at to get home the day we found out you had cancer. I remember it like it was yesterday. Standing in the line, trying to comfort mommy on the phone due to what the doctors had just told her and balling my eyes out. While I have a few drops of liquid rolling down my face now…nothing like that day of March 3, 2011. Even the seat on the plane is the seat next to the seat I sat in years ago. Thankfully I don’t feel like throwing up this time. It’s like I’m in this movie and it is all replaying. I haven’t thought about that day for a long time. But within mins I can remember so much.
I’m going to do what I did back then….listen to my Jessie soundtrack, closes my eyes and let the movie play.
I love you Jess so much!!! Miss you tons!!!
xoxo,
daddy
