My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea…it’s daddy! I miss you so much. As you can tell about this picture there is someone else that misses you a ton too…JT. Last night was his 8th grade celebration dinner. Every student had to pick a hero to model their life after…he picked YOU! As the his comments were shared by his teacher about you…I looked across the table and saw water in his eyes. My heart sunk. No sibling should have to go through the amount of pain he has. Cancer just flat out sucks.
Like all of us, he just wants his sister back to play with…to talk to…to grow up with. Now he lives with a giant hole in his heart for you. I just wish I could take his pain and loss away but I can’t…that is the hardest thing for me. To see my kids in such pain and I can’t do anything….sure I can hold him…hug him…pray with him and let him know he will see you again but that is just to far and hard for him to grasp. He wants you back…not have to wait years. I know life hurts a ton and God heals but there type of wounds just don’t seem easy to heal. They seep with longing and no Band-Aid or ointment makes them feel better. Just like your journey…I can’t make his pain go away and that is so hard for a daddy to grasp….daddy’s are suppose to make their kids feel better and I can’t take his or Shaya’s pan away.
I will continue to hug…to hold and wipe his tears…but I sure wish there was something more I could do…
We miss you so much!
xoxo,
daddy
