My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea…It’s daddy! Happy St. Patrick’s day. You loved this day because you got to pinch me=))). I so wish you were pinching me right now. That would show that I’ve just been having a terrible nightmare. Oh, how I wish I could wake up from this.
I have been looking back at your blog and your Facebook posts the past week. Yesterday marked the 5th year since you made your first post on your fan page. You only had a few followers then…now you have over 400,000. WOW! Maybe someday we will reach 500,000. That would be so amazing.
Your first post was this picture of our family…you wanted everyone to meet us. When I saw this pic it reminded me of that special photo shoot we took with you near the beach with everyone. Due to the news the doctors had just told us we rushed to capture pictures of you and our family before cancer started to impact your body.
Dang I hate cancer. What it did to you…what it did to our family…what it does to other kids every three minutes around the world. It’s just not fair but life isn’t fair so we fight to encourage all of these innocent children to NEGU. That was your wish and that is what we do!
I miss being a family of 5 so much Jess. I hate seeing what it does to mommy, Shaya and JT. Seeing them sad sucks! The other day I was taking JT to school and he asked if he could play a song on his phone. I said… “Sure buddy!” He played your theme song Move from Mercy Me. I tried so hard not to cry in front of him as he was just wanting to hear the song and think of you. After he got out of the car I just lost it. You loved that song so much and you always said after you played it…”I’m going to beat cancer daddy”. I sure wish you had Jess!
JT, Shaya and Mommy shouldn’t have to live with massive holes in their hearts…no sibling or parent should. I’m not trying to be bitter Sweet Pea…I want to be “better” and I’m try to by being a blessing to others. Some days it’s much easier than others. But I will press on in honor of you!
I miss you tons…love you more…see you in a wink! I promise!!!
xoxo
daddy
