My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy! I love this picture of you and JT. So fun! As you know he turned 16 on Monday. He really misses you. So does Shaya. It’s so hard seeing them hurting too. According to my app, it has been 2303 days since all of us held you and kissed you. It was so hard seeing JT and Shaya having to embrace a title wave of emotions at such a young age. Not to mention, kids should not have to deal with PTSD. It’s just so much…so fast…with no quick fix. In some ways it forced them to grow up way to fast and deal with stuff some adults never deal with. They are resilient and doing better each day…it just hard for me to watch as I can’t fix it for them.
Last night, Shaya found an old camera disk of yours. It has over 900 photos on it. We all sat and clicked through them…we cried and we laughed. It was especially hard for me as I though that for everyone of those photos your eye was the one that focused in and your hand clicked the button. It was like being in “Jessie’s world” for a few minutes. Some of the photos we had no idea what you were taking and they made us laugh….others we so sweet and pure of love. These made us cry and miss you. We will forever have these photos of yours, which we will forever cherish. I’m so glad Shaya found this disk.
Well, I need to go and do my morning workout before I take JT to school. I’ll talk to you more as soon as I start working out. I just wish our morning talks were two way.
Miss you so much….love you tons more! See you in a wink. Promise!!!