My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy! We miss you so much!!!! As you can tell by the picture I posted today I’m writing to give you a little update on our family. This picture was taken back in August 2011…the last time we had a family of five vacation. We all cherish these pictures of the five of us.
I wish I could report we have found our “new normal” and the strength to “move on” but that would be a lie. I know you can’t drive a car looking in the review mirror but it seems as if we have all learned to walk forward with one eye on the past on one on the next step forward. I can report that non of us are typically down at the same time…that’s a big improvement. I can also report we all LOVE to talk about you…a week doesn’t go by without one of us saying… “Jessie would have loved that.”
We are not going to be able to take a vacation this summer so we are thinking of things to do for a day or two. Whenever we plan things like this we always think about you in the process….“Where did Jessie love to go? Let’s go there!” We are always thinking about you…dinners sometime can be hard with only four out of the five chairs filled. Maybe all of this is our “new normal”???
Shaya is half-way through college and loves studying interior design. You should see some of the stuff she is creating. She is working on designing her own restaurant for a class…so cool to see a vision become reality. She is also helping with our mini room makeovers for courageous kids. She loves being jessie’s big sister!!! Her heart to help others is massive just like you. It is so fun to watch her work with a family and then take the “likes” of the child and turn a room into that theme. She has the support of this amazing home builder which is so great. She still loves working out, hanging out at fun coffee shops, shopping, cooking amazing meals for us and has added yoga to her routine. I don’t think I could do yoga…I can barely touch my toes…LOL!
JT is now as tall as I am and growing up so fast. He is enjoying summer and swimming for his team. He loves video games so we have to monitor how much he plays…I have to admit video games these days are way better than when I played them. I played a game called “pong”, which was so lame compared to the games out now. He is also doing his summer study requirements as he gets ready for his sophomore year. Like you, he has a BIG heart to help others and loves being at the JoyFactory. Pretty soon he will get his drivers permit and start to drive…I know….that is crazy to think about. I’m confident he will do great!
Mommy misses you so much!!!! I can feel her pain and all I want to do is take it from her. Just like when I wanted so bad to take your cancer from you when you were fighting. It just sucks to see someone you love so much hurting so bad. Thankfully we aren’t “down” at the same time either so we can try to help each other. I love your mom so much and so thankful we are so committed to our marriage no matter how intense the pain gets. As you can remember, we aren’t perfect but we are committed=).
I so wish you could write and tell me how you are doing…just a word would be nice. I know that won’t happen so I will keep holding on to the hope of Heaven and seeing you again. We will have a lot to catch up on…until then I will keep writing each Thursday morning.
Love you so much Jess!
xoxo,
daddy