My Jessie Journal: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s daddy! Happy 4th of July=). I love this picture of you and I on July 4th, 2011. We were in the “honeymoon” stage of your treatment where you were able to eat and walk again. You loved those “sparklers” so much. I remember you liked to draw hearts with them in the air. Those were such fun times.
We had so many fun times together as a family and we miss those times with you so much. According to my phone app it’s been 2, 737 days we have been apart. That seems so long and yet if I live to be 80 years old it will be 10,950 more days until we are reunited. I hate cancer so much. It just silently shows up, sucks life out of you and then leaves a massive wake of pain when it leaves. And to think, 300,000 families around the world each year have to hear… “I’m sorry your child has cancer.” That is so much pain in an already hurting world.
I’m so thankful you had a desire to spread joy to other kids during their painful journey. What you created continues to create smiles and spread so much love. I was in Dallas the last couple of days with Shaya and some other team members sharing your story and mission. We got to meet some courageous kids, super sibs and parents and help them have some fun with the nations best high school football players. One of the parents shared with me how your little motto to “NEGU” has become the mantra of their family and they live by it every day. Your chemo buddy, Cade, was also with us and he shared his story with all of the players. Shaya and the other team members delivered your JoyJars at the local children’s hospital while we were in Dallas. This amazing young lady who is an Olympic gold medalist joined them. Like you, she has a heart of gold. It was a very special trip all because you wanted to help others. I’m so honored to be your daddy!!!
I’m going to go let Moe in the pool so he can get his exercise=). He loves the water so much. You remember those times you and I used to take him in the pool when he was just a little puppy? He was so happy and you were so happy. So wish you were here today Jess! I’ll light a sparkler and draw a “heart” for you today. I hope you can see it from Heaven!
Miss you tons, love you so much more…see you in a wink…Promise!!!