My Jessie Journal:: Hi Sweet Pea, it’s Daddy! I miss you so much. Selfishly I want you back so bad. I just want to stop hurting. I just want mommy, Shaya and JT to stop hurting. We all have mastered pretending everything is ok. That’s what families do that have a son, daughter, brother or sister in Heaven with you.
I can’t believe March 3rd is just a few days away…that was the day we were told you had cancer back in 2011. That date will forever be seared into our souls. Kind of like when people ask, “Where were you on 911?” I guess I could say…311 is way more imprinted on my life than 911. March is the 3rd month of the year and it was 2011. Anyway, it all still sucks! I had having to live that day and think about all of the things that happened. If I slow my mind down, I can remember so many things in great detail.
In April we will celebrate your 18th birthday. We are going to do a really cool t-shirt campaign in honor of YOU! I can’t wait to show you the designs. We will run the campaign for 18 days in honor of your 18th birthday. You big sister will lead the campaign like she has in the past. She loves writing personal cards to everyone that gets a shirt and does a special packaging. She is super creative like that. I never got those gifts…LOL!
April will also mean we celebrate 6 years as a foundation. WOW…what started out as a simple goal to raise a few thousand dollars to help you send JoyJars has become something pretty special. I got this note from a mom yesterday who has a son fighting cancer…
“Erik, I wanted to just let you know I finished your book last night. I read most of it in the 4 hrs between when my boys went to bed and my husband came home from a late work night. I laughed. I cried. It resonated. I prayed. I gained perspective, again. Every time I think of Jessie and your family I think of the word “legacy”. What a legacy your girl and family are etching in this world.”
All because of you asked one question from the back seat of our car in April 2011…“How can we help them?” You truly are an Angel sent from Heaven that had a mission to create a wave of compassion like no other. I’m so honored to be your Daddy! Dang…tears are flowing so I’m going to stop for today.
Love you Jess! More than you will EVER know.
I’m giving you a big squeeze just like this pic=))).